Hi. My name is Michelle.
Probably like you, I wear many different hats in the course of a day, including that of a yoga teacher, a small business owner, a sometimes impatient daughter, a loyal and trustworthy (if not slightly distracted) friend, a cries-at-cattle-trucks vegetarian, and a nature-loving, vata-deranged optimist. I’m also learning to disappoint people and to slow the heck down already.
It’s nice to meet you.
What’s this site about?
If, like me, your life is so full (read: busy) that you feel guilty taking time for yourself, come closer…
There’s another way.
Slowly, I’ve taught myself to love wasting time. To appreciate those tiny moments in between. I’m proud to say this time-wasting thing has become a bit of a calling.
Yes, “wasting” here is a play on words. Wasting could be replaced with “savoring” “cherishing” or “experiencing.”
Many of the things we might love doing – taking a nap, journaling, sitting by a fire – are seen in our culture as lazy, unproductive, inefficient, and unprofitable.
Not only do we look at trivial activities like taking a break or a walk as unnecessary, let’s face it: we even frown upon taking care of ourselves. Taking a day in bed, getting regular massage, or an afternoon off can be seen as selfish and self-indulgent.
To stay sane and mostly regulated, I practice yoga. Even though I am a yoga teacher and I run a yoga studio, I still sometimes feel guilty taking time away from work to be “unproductive” on my mat.
I also sit (as in pretend to meditate). Nowhere else do I feel so tortured and at the mercy of the ruthless mind. But I keep doing it because once in a great while there will be a vast spaciousness that goes beyond words or rational understanding. Knowing that state exists keeps me curious.
I love to take walks and baths and journal and bake. But I’ll bail on all of these things because there’s always something else — something more productive than taking care of myself — to do.
So what did I do to help me waste more time? I got a horse.
He gets me out of the house, into nature, and back in touch with something real and alive. I have to be completely present with him (or he’ll call me on it). I rode horses as a child and it takes me back to a joy that is very simple and pure.
The funny thing is, after getting away from work, I often come home with fresh inspiration, great ideas and new energy for projects. Because I have less time on the computer, the hours I do spend are more focused and less piddly.
I think I’m on to something…
Turns out, wasting time is actually quite productive. There are studies! And tips! And campaigns! And articles! Taking time away from work makes us more creative and more productive throughout the day. We do better because we feel better. Our brains need rest, too.
Now, there’s got to be something between powering through and getting a horse (unless you really want a horse, and then you totally should get one).
Sometimes it’s a deep breath. Other times it’s doing a five-minute stretch at the desk. And yet other times it’s getting out of the house for a walk or a class.
These pockets of time away from the demands of work and family are essential to creativity, sovereignty and SANITY! This is the aim of Love Wasting Time. Together we’ll find the pause button to this loop of bigger, better, faster, more.
Join me in this sacred idleness.